Post Graduation

It still doesn't feel real as I sit here typing from my new Acer laptop.
We had the graduation ceremony. The auditorium was packed. I didn't cry. It went by so fast. The ceremony as well as my high school years. I know if I blink it's going to be July 26th and I'm going to be at orientation.

I was up till 4 am. I chose not to attend grad night because of anti-socialism or something or other. I came home after receiving my diploma and watched 101 Dalmations with Cody (boyfriend) and afterwards went outside on the tramp and gazed at the stars with him. The stars that weren't being blocked by the apricot tree or the lights nearby, that is. It was nice but a bit chilly.

My day was ridiculously long. You know when you do 69 different things in a day it seems to make it seem so long. I had this experience yesterday.

I'm kind of intimidated by the big world now that I'm about to jump into it.

Graduation

Yeah, that's tomorrow. It's kind of hard to think that I won't be coming back to high school next year. It doesn't feel like May (I mean it snowed the other day, come on); feels like we should be getting out for Christmas break.
I don't feel 18. And I definitely feel inadequately prepared for the "real world" despite my vast pool of knowledge.
As much as I can't stand school and it's triviality I will miss it.
I'm not excited to have to find a job (I gotta start my work history somewhere.

I am excited for the immediate era though. I am expecting a laptop tomorrow at some point.
I get to leave behind the retardation of my school; as in the idiots that make up my school. Seriously.
I get to start in on a new experience (thank God). Maybe I'll actually learn something new in college.


Ugh. PS the refried beans I had for dinner are not settling particularly well; having some kind of indigestion or sunthing.

Quirks

I love to compare intelligences with others. I feel superior to those who I find are less intelligent than I, yet feel equal to those who are more intelligent than myself. It's a competition within myself to find those who are "inferior" to me to feel good about myself. Yes, vain.

Those who I feel are lacking in even an average level of intelligence are treated as little kids inside my head. When they show a bit of brightness, in my brain I say "good" in a voice such as how you would talk to your 3 year old. As if it's this massive step forward. I know the majority of the human race isn't an accumulation of blundering buffoons, but I have little patience for those who have yet to mature.

Don't get me wrong. I positively know I am not the sharpest object in the spoon drawer, but I do view myself as above average.

"An honest man speaks the truth, though it may give offense; a vain man, in order that it may." ~William Hazlitt

you may decide